Log in

No account? Create an account
22 June 2005 @ 08:36 pm
I am totally wired. I had a mug of green tea earlier, and the caffeine in it is totally going to me. I haven't been drinking much Diet Coke lately, so maybe that's why. Now I'm listening to something heavier than stupid New-Agey crap, I'm happy.

Seriously, I love being a witch and all, but FUCK this whole "balance, light, love, cheeful, self-deluding, pretend the Gods give a fuck about me" attitude that the Wiccan community seems to have just gets fucking ANNOYING. Give me Crowley over most of that lot anyway. Next lot of books I get, I am so getting some Golden Dawn books. All your Regardie and Mathers are belong to us!

See what I mean about being wired?

Sigh. I wish I could be aggressive. I had a great dream last night, I smashed myself (I was like 2 people, funny, because I'm bi-polar, I swear) in the back of the head with a baseball bat. I saw my skull shatter, it was wicked. Ah, the depths of self-loathing that I feel. Seriously, I just want to smash the living shit out of me. Stupid fat fucking COW. I'm going to hurt you!

Yeah, insanity is wicked fun.

Current Mood: Hyper/aggressive
Current Music: Static-X